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Asking for Help

07/30/2021

So today I learned that I have a month to find a new room or apartment. I am short on cash and my only other option is to move in with my parents which has never been a very health environment for me.

I have never asked for donations in my life, but I could really use some help.

If you can please consider donating to my gofundme I would be very grateful.

Please click here to donate.

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T-Shirts Get Your T-Shirts!

07/20/2021

Well, I’ve got some news. Last week an idea popped into my head and… well I decided to give it a go.

I’m now selling t-shirts. Yeah, really, I am designing t-shirts and selling them. They are now available on Teepublic, Redbubble and Teespring.

View my designs:

I want to create some kind of portfolio section for the site, but I’ve yet to decide exactly what form it will take.

Every one have a deliciously devious night,

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New(ish) Art

07/11/2021

I went ahead and revamped the cover art for both of my Exemplar Universe stories, Psyren’s Redemption and The Fall of Kruhl. The changes for Psyren are more extensive, I almost redid the entire thing. The Art for Kruhl is closer to the original, but I did have to recreate parts of it because I was only able to find still images and some of the source images. I managed to create a version that is very close to the original. I also included the art for the Seal of Disapproval. This is an updated version of the seal which appeared on previous versions of the cover art. I thought it was a fun tongue and cheek way of mocking the old Comic Code Authority seals that appeared on comic book covers.

I hope you like the new art. Everyone have a delightfully devious night,

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A Heads Up

07/10/2021

Just a headd up boys, girls and enbies,

I am going to look at putting Psyren’s Redemption and Fall of Kruhl up on Amazon. So if you’d like to preserve a copy, it would probably be a good idea to nab them before they’re gone.

Also, the last time I posted such a notice I got a little bit of push back, so I’m going to add a disclaimer. Please, before you chime in and tell me that it’s in poor taste or that I should only sell stories that weren’t already available online for free, please consider you are not aware of my current financial status or why I am even selling these stories to begin with. Please allow me to do with my intellectual property as I see fit and respect that.

Thank you.

Farewell

07/02/2021

I just learned of the passing of Maggie Finson, a long time internet friend and someone who helped me a lot in my early day’s of writing. She was a beta reader on many of my early stories and even is responsible for naming Facades. I don’t know what awaits beyond this life, but I hope that wherever she may be that she is happy. Rest well my friend, I’ll miss you.

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Neurodiversity and Me

06/10/2021

First, I’d like to thank all those who reached out to me in these difficult times. You don’t know how much it has helped me to push through. Directed (mandatory) overtime has ended at work, and my stress levels are pretty low right now. I’ve kept rather limited contact with my mother as she has been the primary catalyst for most of my turmoil. I’m more emotionally stable than I was when I wrote my last blog, but I’m going to continue my writing hiatus for the next several weeks. I don’t want to set any specific dates, but I will keep you updated when I am ready to resume telling Kayde’s story.

This last year has been pretty wild for me, I have discovered I’m trans, made new friends and started pushing boundaries that I never had before. This has also prompted a lot of reflection and deep thought. I’ve interacted with a much more diverse group of people and this has sparked some new revelations about myself. A few months back I added #neurodiverse to my twitter bio. I have struggled with ADD my whole life. I liked the more positive viewpoint, and the idea that it isn’t so much a disorder as a simple natural diversity of the brain. Basically some people’s brains work differently than others and that’s not necessarily a bad thing, it’s just another aspect of biological diversity.

For some time now, I’ve been exploring the idea that I may have autism. Some of the things that really started to drive this home were that I don’t make eye contact with people, I’ve long struggled picking up on simple social cues and effectively communicating is difficult for me. All of these are often indicators and while there are a laundry list of criteria, I’m not going to list them here or all those that apply to me. Suffice it to say these particular ones resonated pretty heavily with me.

So, yesterday I brought this up with my therapist and she agreed with me, in fact she’d already drawn the same conclusion. She actually works with a lot of people with autism and she recognized the signs in me. Now, some of you might ask why she didn’t bring it up and that is a valid question. She reasoned that I had a lot of things to work through in regards to being trans and most especially with my mother and that suggesting I have autism might cause me stress I didn’t need. I appreciate this, I think allowing me to find out on my own, really helped me come to terms with it. Had she brought it up in one of our sessions, I might not have been as receptive to the idea.

So, while I haven’t had a formal diagnosis, it’s pretty clear I have autism. I don’t look at this as a bad thing, but merely part of who I am. Please don’t pity me or suggest that I am somehow lesser than anyone else. For me autism does not diminish me nor do I see it as a disability. I have a different way of seeing the world because my brain works a little differently than neurotypicals. I am intelligent, thoughtful and passionate and I celebrate discovering this truth about myself. Knowing is half the battle, and understanding that I’m wired differently allows me to better function in a world built by people who’s brains work differently from me.

This is still very new to me, but it is a subject that I will continue to discuss. I feel it’s important to be open about these subjects to better raise awareness. Our society has taught us that anything labeled as different or less desirable should be hidden and kept a secret. I believe that’s why there is such a mental health crisis in our society. If people are allowed to discuss things like depression or drug addiction without fear of being judged or demeaned, more folks could get the help they really need. In the same way, if we were more open about autism, those of us who struggled to cope could better learn to adapt.

Thanks for reading and I hope you will continue with me on this journey of discovery and as usual have a deliciously devious day,

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A Short Hiatus

06/05/2021

I’m taking a short writing hiatus, there are a lot of factors but most of it boils down to just taking care of myself and my mental well being. My mother has been creating a lot of drama related to me being trans. In short, she’s not taking it well. I thought I might turn her into an ally then come out to my father, but that is looking… unlikely. I plan on coming out to him probably in a few weeks time after directed (mandatory) overtime ends at work.

Hope everyone is well and is having a delicious devious weekend,

 

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Legacy Delay

05/07/2021

Editing the latest Legacy chapter is taking longer than I expected. I’ve found a lot of overused words and it’s a pain in the butt eliminating them. I’m hoping to have it up some time Saturday or at the very latest Sunday morning.

Sorry for the inconvenience, I’m going to bed…

Have a deliciously devious night,

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Ten Years!

04/22/2021

Wow, I just looked on my profile and saw that I’ve been a member of Bigcloset Topshelf for ten years and five days! It’s been quite the ride and it seems so very long ago that I first posted Virtually Twisted. I was so early into my journey and it took me so long to come to my senses and accept I’m trans. Look at me now, 6+ months into HRT and still writing.

Much love to you all and have a deliciously devious night,